Why can't you hold the Light?
You already felt God. You already knew the Light. But then everything disappeared again — and you thought you had lost it. No. It wasn't a loss; it was an invitation to go deeper. This is the sixth message of the "Gospel of the Kingdom," in which the Creator Himself speaks. Here is an explanation of why the Light cannot be held, but can be become. This is not a lesson. It is a reminder. You don't return to the Light — you already are It.
Gospel of the Kingdom